Late Night Prose

holy smokes! look ma' im writing again after a fairly extensive hiatus initiated under the pretext of me taking some time off from all of this when in fact, i've been just procrastinating as always due to the lack of "fucktards intolerance" that has been wearing off considering the fact that right now, as of this moment, im living a happy life... :)


having said that, i'm no longer living in a life so miserable where i laugh/get laughed on other's miscreant fucks as always where at the end of the day, a cigarette will always bring butterflies and sunshine-coloured-jello to my tummy so wonderful i would eventually vomit them out...


fortunately for me, the past 3 months or so have taught me to see clearly of what i really want in life and also, helped me see clearly who's there to help me get it, be it within close proximity or remotely, it doesn't really matter... also to much of my horror, who to stay the fuck away from... and with a heavy heart, i did what i thought was for the best for me and dear god, i was right!


for one, i've escaped the deadly noose of nicotine that has been troubling me since forever. it is still in a test phase but i know deep down, this will not just end there. the success of this might as well be credited to someone so special to me, but we'll talk about it later... ;)


also, i've learnt to clean up my own mess unlike last time where i would gladly wait for someone to wipe my ass every time i take a shit, metaphorically. in such honour, i would declare those days are done. no more. out. in the trash.


also it finally came into my epiphany that in life, we dont always get what we want but instead, what we really need is what comes along in the most sneaky ways we could imagine and that is the real test; whether we grab it or lose it while waiting for the wants...


and as always before i end my post, i would like to induce a certain level of false hopes (high enough) to you guys to believe that i will not post anymore ranting posts in the future  hoping that my blog traffic stays the same by a simple line of poor convincing but you know i know thats not gonna happen, so i might as well skip that part eh? ;)


.. ..and of course, readers of my sad little blog, the bombshell of this post!


TADAAAAAA！

meet the lovely lady, Alena Chua Hui En <3

for the past 7 weeks, she has helped me realised a whole loads of things but mostly, she has taught me how to be strong when im at my darkest moment and also how to keep my head held up high even when i've fallen to the deepest of depths. also, she has been there, alongside me, to share the joy of everyday's little or big things and also the pain in every hardship God decides for us to suffer...


i know although it is not been long since we're together, but i have a great feeling about this. And yes, i would definitely wanna make this right. IM SURE I WANNA MAKE THIS RIGHT! 


i <3 you, Alena Chua Hui En ! :)