satuday..

12.46am- ayer keroh...
just a second ago, i was curled up semiperfectly beneath the immense warmness of my toy-train-print-comforter digesting the final few pages of existentialism without realizing that supper has been unwillingly discounted from the list-of-things-to-do-before-bedtime indefinitely. now its almost 1 and somehow i just dont feel like going out, (must be the weird noises coming from the hallway) despite the fact that im horribly famished and its also saturday night, -no one stays at home on saturday nights, that of course unless you're a gay/faggot/justin bieber's fan- 


i genuinely dont know if im actually transgressing the saturday night act for not leaving my room immediately but honestly, i dont really care..


i just dont really know how to put these in words but right now, the petite act of putting on a pair of shorts, a dirty old tshirt and drag my heavy body to the mamak seems impossibly impossible at the moment. my head seems heavy but my eyes are eternally conscious for im trying too hard to not to sleep and also at the same time i feel like the whole world is falling down right on my face simultaneously. 


plus, my roomie's busy packing all his belongings right now as he's leaving tomorrow first thing in the morning (imma miss you dude!) and the sound of all the grinding and crushing and crumbling and scraping from books, laptop cooler pads to multicoloured foldable laundry basket is circumventing me from understanding the last chapter of existentialism, the role of failure in success. 


anyway, screw saturday nights. imma pour myself a drink right now and enjoy youtube videos...


speaking of which, recently i came across this really cute girl on youtube who posts comical videos of everyday life of hers. really awesome stuff...








...saturday nights are always awesome!..


..if you know what to do ;)

..is earned, not given

the word of the day is happiness :)

Zombie in action

-its almost 9 and im still reading existentialism, totally disregarding the fact that i still have an on-going assignment due next month :)

i was a dead animal the whole day- i did not sleep well last night and apart from that, i slept with my contact lenses intact the whole whats-left-of-a-night until late this morning. and when i woke up, i couldn't open my eyes! later on, i walked to the food court with massive bloodshot eyes and gotten myself quite an enormous amount of glares and stares from passers-by, with their looks as if were asking me, "dude have you been drinking? are you drunk? are you gonna kill me anytime soon?" 

"no. no. and yes if you dont keep your eyes somewhere else", i answered. but of course, they couldn't hear me. 

i hate it when i don't get enough sleep, i'll get irritated by anything and everything and the simplest of things. even when people walking behind of me, i'll get very frustrated. take for instance, whilst i was walking to the food court earlier straight outta bed, this dude was walking closely behind me bust tapping on his cell's keypad and i already felt like yelling, " dude wtf cant you walk somewhere else instead??" 

also my wifi was fucked and that alone added to my pile of misery and in turn got me even more aggravated. felt like throwing my laptop off the second floor. seriously i was unimaginably annoyed! 

with my judgement of rationalization bearing nearly zero, i went to the pc fair held inside my uni campus and bought myself a printer and a usb wifi for 150 bucks. turns out that the usb wifi was totally unnecessary because my wifi is working fine! one of my housemates did not pay the internet bill for more that 3 weeks already so the line was disconnected. 

you can only imagine my frustration right now (no you can't)! felt like eating people for breakfast tomorrow! omm nom nom nom......

i walked like a zombie the whole day. i acted like a zombie the whole day. i felt like a zombie the whole day. better still, i was vaguely aware of what i had for lunch and totally oblivious of whether or not i've taken dinner. just a couple of minutes ago, i managed to pull myself together and actually for a moment, acted like a perfectly imperfect human being. also, it just came to my realization that tomorrow's monday!

oh shit it's monday!