the talk of the cock

i've always wanted to be a columnist if i grow up.....(notice the rather irrelevant conditional. due to the nature of how i've chosen to live my life, the adverse would be irrelevant as well, but what the heck right?)

maybe write about cars -performance parts, tried-tested-proven-over-the-head-theories and eventually strip jeremy clarkson's column off the sunday times-, and jokes -sarcasm! which is unfortunately not something that i am good at. maybe people just dont get me- or even maybe something about law -considering the fact that i'll be doing law for the next 5 years or so so why not? anyway, i'll probably turn the facts into a burlesque of justice when elements of heavy sarcasm were introduced-... 

even when i was 8, when half of the class wanted to be doctors, i wanted to be a writer. as a columnist. or maybe even publish my own books if i get the chance. (notice the rather appropriate conditional. this is due to the fact that the adverse is really irrelevant, not to mention preposterous!) 

but recently, i was told to give up writing (directly, but not as a whole). i was daunted! i mean how can i let go writing? its just wrong. later on, to add insult to injury, he majestically proceeds to claim that my writings are grotesque and awful choices of words, and utterly ridiculous. and just like that, my heart sank. he used to be an avid reader of my blog and now, such product of air and vocal chords interactions, like the tip of a spear, dipped in deadly poison, pierced through my heart exceedingly. 

truth be told, i really adore fine writings very very much. as they would say, "a picture paints a thousand words". i'd say, "a word can write out the heart of the painter". 

i've started this blog out since november 2008 and posted over 200+ posts and over time, gained the trust of 16 wonderful and awesome people, who subsequently writes just as good as me, better even! over 500+ comments were received & replied and the total unique visitors that found their way to this humble site racked up to 17000+.. i know. my blog doesn't really have amazing vital stats but heck, its still up and running.

used to be a time where bloghoppers would come and say stuff like, "hey your blog so not popular why go buy a .com? act like damn popular only, &%$#*!"

writing is really not something easy. when you write for people to read, you dont feel the satisfaction, bliss, atonement, fulfillment, relief and more importantly, achievement. when you write what you wanna write, people fuck you, hard. jesus.

recently i came across an awesome blogger who wrote in his blog, "writing is not for the fainthearted". 

HOW FUCKING TRUE!!!