getaway 2.0

as the claws of a stranded bat in the attic battling violently against the soft sad vulnerable plywood ceilings 10 feet above my head, i flip the pages of the latest edition of the newsweek expeditiously. continuous reading follows on with stock market analysis which i have no absolute understanding on and something about eschatology pops out of somewhere between a vodka ad page and something about the NPT summit. all sorts of post-apocalyptic stuff and the evolution of god, and how it changed the world. the sound continues. deeply annoyed with all the screeching overhead, i decide that its in the best interest of the poor fella and mine if i just go to sleep...


bad move.


the screeching continues and its really beginning to annoy me to the point of frustration. so again, in the best interest of it and mine, i decide that throwing the sony ericsson w810i to the ceiling isn't a good move either so i plug into my ipod and tune it to shuffle. besides, i cant really sleep just yet -its 1.45 in the morning, not 4. teenagers dont sleep at 1.45 in the morning. its wrong, both morally and ethically-


then there's the story of how life can really be so unpredictably predictable sometimes...


hypocritical, no? how can something be so unpredictable when you are the one who determines the course of your life, with your actions (and sometimes, inactions)? so now, you're telling me that i do this to make that happen but in the end, that will not happen. is that it? is that what you're saying? stop messing with my head here but it seems to me like you're a moron. its blunt and simple, life does not fuck with us. life deprive us of what we need and what we want. its us who blamed life for fucking with us when after all, all the blames are on us, us alone, period. we simply did not work hard enough for what we want, need. 


there's no higher power here. no destiny. no angels and demons and the Great Influence (Constantine) here. its all bullshit. some psychobabble bullshit invented by people thousands of years ago so that we, stuck here believe in something that does not exist. 


they said that 8 out of 10 people believe that our lives are controlled by something. destiny, faith etc etc. i'd say - bullshit.


when we worked hard for something and in the end, didnt get it, they'll say that its not bound to happen. its not fated to happen. well, its not true that we don't get what we want. its just that we don't see it there when we actually have it. open up your eyes. you live to see better. not the other way around


.....for after all life is an ephemeral thing, what i'd like to call - the perfect imperfection, 2.0 (upgraded)