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midnight studying can be a bitch sometimes. with limited light sources (and food), it can really tear things up. while searching for food, i came across these suckers. ahh the good old memories. these 'yellow packs' had shown up in my life ever since i was a 10 year old boy. mamee monsters. this night alone i down-ed 5 packs. no shit. i wish i got more of these things. *grumbles*

okay. said. firstly, there's this green bug infestation back at hostel here. its driving me nuts. its driving everybody nuts. you know the feeling that when you're focusing so hard (studying) and then these insects come rocketing alongside your ears and it really gets you. damn!

second, not everyone is back. in fact no one is back yet. and why the fuck i got back so early? *wondering*

moving on, the dining hall. one word: non-operational

next, studies. still a longg wayy to gooo..

finally, i need like..,to go out! anywhere. just out. movies shop food etc etc etc. i hate windows and doors and windows and doors. *curses*

*sigh* i know i sounded like shit in this post. trust me i would pay a shitload of money to anyone blog this for me. but heck, its just me. the same boy who wakes up every morning and tell himself and his harmless life "the whole wide world is mine!"

it.is.back!

nothing hurts as much the feeling when you're leaving home (except maybe removing contact lenses for the first time)...
i'm back in college. got back just a few hours ago.

and now, i shall get some sleep ...

Saya (N)anti Rasuah

ever since i got back from college, i've been confined in my room the whole day. been doing loads of studying lately as AS is just a few weeks away. as the tension rises, i somehow managed to feel that the whole house is under pressured as well. both my parents are worried sick about me as i'm the youngest child in the family (seems that somehow the youngest child is the most problematic child: results slacking, falling grades etc etc). my parents reckon that i had way too much fun back in college and i should be controlled. well at least i agree on that part.

studying, reading was the only thing i can do right now. contrary to popular belief, i still DO care about my studies! so for the past week, i basically studied my ass out for my AS. however, there's still loads of ground to cover but heck...,i can do it!

yesterday, however was somewhat different from the other days i am homed. as usual i woke up around noon and had lunch. after that, studied some and then out of a sudden my dad knocked and presented himself inside my damn messy room. and then, he ask me something that i thought that he would never ask me for the rest of my life. he asked me out!. LOL as in 'teman' him to go somewhere.

apparently he needs to go down to JB to meet a client and since i'm so stressed out, he figured it would be a great idea to bring me along. (yeah i need like...fresh air!)

half an hour later, we hit the road. my dad was driving and me sitting in the passenger sit beside him. we talked. alot. like some studying stuffs (like how's college? how's your coming exam? how's this how's that etc). conversations like that really do kill time though. before we notice anything different, we were in JB.

we meet his so-called client. it was my uncle HAHA. (great one dad! cheers to you!) apparently my uncle booked this new condo in dunno where where and my dad wanted to check it out. but when we went there, the show unit was under renovation. so, we can't enter the show unit! FUCK THIS SHIT!

so there you go. then we kinda hung out in some lake area around the famous kopitiam in JB. we had some coffee talk and then me and my dad left JB. heading back.

i was so pissed that i had wasted my day (and not getting to see my uncle's condo). my dad maintained his cool attitude and remained relax as he drove home.

and then, Murphy's law kicks in as we saw a roadblock 500m away. farkk! at that time, my dad was driving no less than 140kph. my dad slowly decelerates as we approach the roadblock. we lined up like all the other cars as usual. one by one was checked and was released. then..,it was our turn. moment of truth. tadah. as predicted, the police officer signalled my dad to the side of the road. we're so fucked.

from the rear view mirror i can see another police officer walking towards the back of my dad's car. my dad winded down the window as the police officer was standing right by the side of the car. the following is an actual conversation that took place on highway roadmarker 58km:

Police officer: Encik tahu tak encik sudah melanggar had laju kenderaan tadi? (Sir, are you aware that you have went over the speed limit just now?)

Dad : Tadi saya ingat saya bawa perlahan saje (I thought I was driving slow just now)

Police officer: Tadi encik bawa 130kph semasa memandu di zon 110kph (You were driving at 130kph in a 110kph zone)

Dad : Ai sikit saje lebih. Tak boleh lepas ke? Saya janji lepas ini bawak perlahan. (Just a little above the speed limit. Can I get away with it? I promise I will drive slowly after this)

Police officer: Betul nak lepas? Janji bayar RM50 saya sekarang boleh lepas. Ingat jangan pandu laju lepas ini. (Really don't want to get into trouble? I can let you off if you pay me RM50 now. Remember don't drive fast after this)

and just like that. all this happened in less that 60 seconds. it took 60 seconds to get yourself out of trouble. cool!.then my dad slipped a RM50 note to the police officer. he then slipped the note under his torso pocket. as he slips the money into his pocket, i notice something. something distinct on his pocket that got me wondering. something like this :

wtff?! he was wearing a "saya anti rasuah" badge! lmao. as he walked away, my dad winds up the window and sped off. we hit the road and before we knew it, my dad was going 140kph again.

it got me wondering as i recalled the badge on his chest. if only we were in another foreign country, my dad would be in trouble now as he was speeding on the highway a little while ago. he would be in more trouble for trying to bribe the cop as he can be charged for obstruction of justice. but hey. we're at no trouble at all. wer'e here. in malaysia. home of the 'open traffic police bribery".

as we reached the ayer itam tol, i said to myself : "damn i still got loads of stuffs to catch up!"

most importantly, i love malaysia! :)

Happy Earth Day! =)

Started in 1970, earth inhabitants all around the world began the practice of celebrating 'Earth Day' annually on april 22nd.
the goal? to make the planet a better place to live (hell yeah!)
this year's april 22nd makes no difference.
together, we can still conserve and preserve the environment before its too late.
for starters, reduce the usage of plastic materials, reuse bio-degradable materials (paperbags, etc) and most importantly, recycle!
don't waste water. cut down electricity usage.
do all that and you can held your head up high for the rest of the day :)
be a responsible citizen of earth. do your part!



Happy Earth Day people! :)

An Alien Invasion

picture this: late night. you're driving home. from a meeting. in a different town. 300km away from home. alone. at 60mph. with the car stereo playing 'Love Is In The Air' by John Paul Young. you drive. cruise down the empty and lonely highway. you're seeing signboards. signboards. signboards. you read those signboards. 'home-120km away'. you yawn. more signboards. signboards. signboards. you turn your attention to the road. you see lines. lines. more lines.

then. suddenly. you notice something weird. something bright. something unusual. something like this:

is flying above your car. flying. hovering for an instance. before exploding in supersonic speed and vanish into the thin air. you look at the exact same spot where it disappears for 3 seconds. and then you open your mouth and blurt out : "FUCK THIS SHIT!"

you look at the rear mirror. checking. checking if there are other road users on the road that may have witness it too. you found. nothing. there was no one else there. your speedometer drops. you whip the sweat from your forehead. you say to yourself : "I MUST HAVE OVERWORKED JUST NOW. NOW I'M SEEING THINGS IN MY HEAD. I'M TIRED. I NEED TO GET HOME SOON".

soon. your speedometer continues to climb and you're on your way back home. you drive. drive. eager to get back as soon as possible. you begin to think that the undesired sight that you just saw was delusional. your mind is playing tricks on you. you're tired.

you begin to calm down and continue driving. as things getting better along the road. you begin to feel something somewhat chilly. you turn off the air con. cold. cold. and then. you look out the window and saw this :

you freak out! you step on the throttle so hard that it nearby broke off. your rpm climb until the roof. your speedometer was unreadable. you reach home some half and hour later. you jump into your bed. wrap yourself inside the blanket. you doze off.

next morning. around 8am. you wake up. your mind is blank. you open your eyes and walk aimlessly around the house. you switch on the tv. like you always did in the morning. you watch the early news. but wait. the news presenter is not around. but someone else is there. you look closely. he looks familiar. then when you open your eyes wide enough and get closer look. your brain rings a bell. he's there. in tv. every channel. the US President is on every damn channel. speaking. looks like a global alert or something. something important.

you could not believe it! what you're hearing! and what you're seeing! apparently the US President is giving out an important message. THE WHOLE WORLD IS UNDER ATTACK. from washington dc to tokyo japan. from pyongyang to paris. from the arctic circle to africa. ALIENS HAD INVADED THE PLANET! there are aliens everywhere! they're ugly. around 5 feet tall. green headed. yellow eyes and long limps. skinny looking creatures. but deadly.killing humans. killing everything. destroying buildings. cars. park. offices and schools.

armed forces around the world are working together to fight these aliens. for the first time in mankind history. but we humans are outnumbered. the aliens keeps on coming and there are more and more of them. more.more. more. and they are everywhere.

later. the general in charge issues a contigency plan. it is a plan that will determine the faith of mankind. the plan is. TO HIDE. apparently we just can't fight off those alien and we're forced to hide. hiding was the only way out. our only option. our only hope. so we start to hide. everyone who survived the first wave of killing rampage in the world. we hide.

for hours we hide. until the hours become days. we hide. hide. all we ever know was to stay out form the alien infested world. we hide. maybe a week later or so. help finally arrived. some sort of galactical combat force arrived. armed with laser beams. they hunt for those greenish monsters. blam blam blam. one by one. the aliens vapourise. few hours later. they did it. they killed all the aliens. every one of them. every piece of them is gone. our heroes later starts to make announcement that they beaten the aliens. we're safe.

so the news of the alien death begin to circulate around the world. people began to resurface from their hidding. everyone around the world. the world celebrated the end of the alien's dictatorship and also the heroic acts from the galatical combat force. just as everything is going back to normal. and then ......

what? could not picture the scenes anymore? neither could I. cause something 'fishy' just attacked my nostrils. i opened my eyes. and found out my face was buried deep into the piles of dirty clothes on my bedroom floor. it was a dream. dream. better luck next time. hope. i would love not to have ufos flying above my car someday. hmmm

zulu...zulu

Books books notes books and more books eventually...

Day by day ever since I got back from college I'm spending all my time in my room with books and nothing else but books.

my study table..which is a mess

past year AS papers...

yay! here's a book that I actually like.. It's hot on the rack still. Get a copy of it!

my laptop seems somewhat lost underneath piles of books and notes..

After being confined in my room filled with books for days..,this afternoon I decided that I had enough! I went downstairs to the living room and stole a copy of THE UNBORN dvd my dad just bought a few days ago...

I brought it upstairs...,opened the fake pirated plastic cover of the dvd, and popped the disc inside my laptop and pressed play...

"PLAY LARRR...dammit the disc jammed or what?? *grumbles*

After some banging on the side of the laptop.., the screen sprang into life. haha.

watched it for some 1 hour + and it was great. Great because of the fact that I haven't got the chance to watch anything since I got back from college. Finally get to watch something..*smug*

AS is really really near and I'm so under-prep. sigh looks like I really have get it moving on then...hmmmmm

Boy & Girl

This is an interesting story I came across while I was searching the web for blog maintenance and 'making-easy-money-with-your blog' pages. After reading it over and over again, I found it very intriguing and decided to just 'cut and paste' it here ... after all there was no copyright warning and stuffs like that (like I give a damn larr) okay anyway so this is how it goes :

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Boy meets Girl. Boy and Girl became friends. Boy starts to have feelings for Girl. Boy eventually became very nice to Girl. Boy starts to follow Girl wherever she goes, paying for Girl's meals, carry her shoppings and chauffeuring Girl around. Boy thinks that by being nice to Girl she would eventually gets the signal and respond.

Yes ..., Girl does get the signal but she had no interest in Boy. Girl treats Boy just like an ordinary friend. Boy did not care. Boy just wants to be around Girl everytime everywhere.

Eventually Girl meet Boy2. Boy2 was rich, handsome, and drives a better car than Boy. Girl likes Boy2 and they became close. Boy did not mind at all. Everytime Boy and Girl meets, Girl will fill the conversation with everything about Boy2. Girl tells Boy how Boy2 treats her, buy her expensive gifts etc etc. Boy did not mind. He listen patiently.

Then one fine day, Boy discovers that Boy2 already had a girlfriend. Not just one girlfriend, 3 girlfriends! Boy2 is a playboy who spent his money and looks to get girls in his bed. Boy is in dismay. He scare that one day Girl might get cheated by Boy2.

Boy tries to tell Girl, but Girl does not believe Boy. Girl said that those were stories made up by other jealous boys in college. Boy is defeated.

Girl and Boy2 get really close. They almost go out together everyday. Movies and dinner. Dinner and movies. Boy still chauffeur Girl around when Boy2 is not around. Although he knows that Boy2 is with one of his girlfriends.

One night, Girl asks Boy to send her to Boy2's place. Boy reluctantly agrees and eventually drive Girl to Boy2's place and left her there to spend her night.

Boy is devastated. Boy's friend consoled Boy and cheer Boy up. A few weeks had passed after the night and Boy is feeling much better without having Girl around. Boy is more open with everything and eventually meets other girls. Boy is moving on.

Then one day, he discovers that Boy2 had left he country. He left following some criminal charges and fled the country. Girl is devasted. Girl also found out that Boy2 had multiple girlfriends and is cheating on Girl.

Girl went back to Boy. Begging for forgiveness. Girl wants Boy back. Boy consoled her and remained friends with Girl. But Girl wanted more. Girl wants to be with Boy. So one night, Girl tried to seduce Boy by offering herself sexually to Boy in his car.

Boy just pushes Girl away and drove back. Girl is deeply embarrass. Boy drove Girl back.

The next day, the police arrived and found Girl's dead body. Apparently Girl hung herself after that night. Girl left a note by her side which reads out :

Boy,
I'm so sorry that I had disappointed you over and over again.
If I was given another chance I would really like to start over with you.
I admit I was blind before,
failing to notice that Boy2 is just some jerk who trying to get into my pants,
failing to notice he's been fooling everyone here.. me and three other innocent girls...
failing to understand what is the real meaning of true love..
but most importantly.., failed to notice you!
you were here by my side from the start!
you were with me form the start.
from the day I first met you to that night in the car!
I can't live without you.
and now since I already had lost you.,
I would as well lose myselft too..
I'm so sorry I screwed up!
I really wish we could get together someday somewhere.
I love you.

==========The End==========

I really wanted to write an alternate ending to that story but well.., to hell with it. I'm dead lazy to write stories. Boringgggg. moral of the story? I don't know why don't you tell me?

AS is real near and I'm still going slow. wonder if I can prep myself in time. *sigh* gonna it empty for a few days maybe I'll continue once I got back to college. till then...., chiow

....the juice is worth the squeeze....

someone once told me that life is all about being the best, beat the rest! Bullcrap I don't buy it. Least. Enough said.

recently thing's been awfully crappy. she-want-me-want-we-don't-want thinking is filling up my mind yet again. countless thoughts of her. everytime. everywhere. every now and then. in dreamless sleeps. in sleepless dreams.

I'm like losing a gamble where I haven't place my bet yet. a fair game of chance where there's no my-my-probability. like toss of dice without my number on it. like throwing a dart to a donut where there's no bullseye.

kelly (big time porn producer) once said : "the first rule of politics is that you must always know if the juice is worth the squeeze". Translation --never go for something that brings consequences that you're not ready to face.

Matthew Kidman once asked : "so what's moral fibre all about?? funny i used to think that moral fibre is basically telling the truth, doing good deeds, you know basically living like a fucking boy scout. then i realised that it's more of finding the one thing that is most inportant to you.

and when you find this one special thing, you risk it all. you protect her you basically put her in front of everything's else : your life your future everything. and maybe sometimes the things that you done for her isn't so clean, but deep down you know..., that the juice is worth the squeeze"

to me, the real meaning of it is that whether we could ask ourself : "is the risk of the detour outweights the benefit of the risk taken at the first place?" life had always been a big gamble. it always have. full of off-bets and high hands and we the weaker ones are left un-chipped.

i really need to take a good look at myself before i decide that i really want to do this. recent history of trades suggest that this might just be the biggest shit that will bring me down and God, I really wished i can pull this through.

now waking up every morning, walk aimlessly around the house without a cause. it's just tearing me apart right now. huge stuffs are coming my way. I'm just a boy how can you put all these on me??

I need motivation. determination. loads of movies and maybe a spark (if you know what i mean) people said things happened for a reason. people also said things happened without a reason. to me, things happened for a reason that we're defining so far for which the reason is us to stop searching for the reason.

General Albert Pike once said: "for after all what is man in nature? a nothing in relation to infinity. all in relation to nothing. a central point between all and nothing and indefinitely far from understanding either."

where are we in understanding ultimately what the fuck we're supposed to do here? just breathe everyday and live our life? eat and continue breathing? what we supposed to do? what's our primary objective? what's our mission? had we accomplished our task? or had we failed?

i really want to know if i can do this alone. can I? should I? would I? what's in for me? what do I get? what's the risks? can I die doing this? or......

IS THE JUICE WORTH THE SQUEEZE?

class vs trip to kl

tuesday afternoon, get out of bed at 1+, shower and off to class.. yesterday however there's a slight change in plan.. got up a little early (5mins earlier tops) open my door cause there's someone slamming it == opened it and there's agent 67... apparently he's leaving kl in 20mins time.. wanted to go kl sentral to get tickets back home. (liren promised him to fetch him there) == after a disastrous 2mins decision....i ended up in the car with them ****! then we waited for cb and we're off to kl! yay? =S

singing, crapping, swearing, talking cock and we reached kl sentral. 67 got his tickets and then off to midvalley... .... .... .... ...missed 2 turns and 1 u-turn.... .... .... ... ... ... we found ourselves at the pavilion =______________=" LOL so we thought wtf la since we're here why not..... urghhh

shop shop shop kaplui shop shop shop.... then it's makan time :

what liren ate ... some curry ramen ... ^^

some chicken thing ... with rice

chicken pieces with dried chilli

her smile really makes my day!

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am I lucky enough to see your smile everyday? =)

say my name and make fly me off this planet entirely...

when I close my eyes, you're all that I see...

you're my angel without wings...

my angel when I wake...

I need you by my side...

blast!

whooaaa...it really got me wondering what happened to Toretto's 1000bhp 69 Charger after he crashed it 8 years ago. a wacking monster-ish piece of engineering that ride! sweet! after watching the first 40mins of the show, i'm shouting my heart out after that ride showed up!

Letty fixed it! pieces by pieces. just like when 'she' was built. *grin*

Fast and Furious was amazingly great. awesome story-connection from the 2nd and 3rd show. great cars! more action, more explosion. what else can we ask for?! LOL

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ideas came quick. bad ideas even faster. a 30 seconds music can influence the whole damn trip back from the movies! =.=" decisions were made and there we go...took 10mins to dress up and we're good to go =)

blah blah blah and we're back in college again yay! haha anyway it wasn't that bad. we had fun! I HAD FUN! xD

screwed up next day classes. test. assignments. everything. but it was fun. had a blast! *smug*