Let Go!

These feelings they bring me excitement...*weee* Just passed my tests hmmm...,did badly though yay! =S ~sigh~ I just wanna rest! Fugging exhausted@@ I wish I knew! Fugg!! Hmmm....,gonna get it done soon =) Final's approaching (arghh) the 'game' getting more intense (love it) I wish I could just
let go...Hmmm maybe I should just stick to the old plan...hate the raining October which ending soon...0.O

Lab sessions ending soon...so are mpw classes! yay! Tata Mr.Steven LOL wish I don't have to see you again next sem! *Blek* =P

Pasar malam trip last week was awesome...bought loads and loads of food...weekend was amazing (stayed at eddy's place) gay shit! lolx..

Haha...first day of the week was superb! Classes were unusually FUN! (maybe the thought of her has gone away) Hmmm...

Just got the info that 1 more test's coming this friday...T.T got loads to brush up...hope the notes are helpful though... *cheh,baru ingat this friday can 'holiday' again* sobs sobs sobs*

Guess next week gonna be pretty busy since final's approaching and Inti once again gonna be empty ( as in many students from others courses having their sem break next week) Inti + empty = Inty :P

Haih..,jason!! focus!! stop dota-ing, supper-ing, E2-25-ing, pool-ing and talking cock! study!!!! motivate youself! Hmm... ???

p/s: Mommy...,I want a new phone!!!! pretty please??

~sigh* My tears not cold I wonder why? *

*It seems like the harder that I try, the more it BACKFIRES on me* yay? =S I'm really SORRY that I try to take something from you that I didn't help you to GET! I got another confession to MAKE, I really LOVE you! I'm not just trying to get the BEST of you! I was born to RESIST, not be ABUSE! Everyone's got their chain to break, including you! It's REAL, the pain you FEEL! ~ Guess I'm better off on my own, T.T... *Where's my snare?* [hmmm...,will you buy me a drink?]

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Another day another hope :

It's been a few hours since i last texted her. I miss her badly! LOL. Finally got back to track. Handed in my-long-dued-assignments today.

Hmmm I was wrong to justify them this way though, ~I'm sorry guys~

Mixed feelings returned again this morning : to go or not to go?

They deserve better ; Wish I can let them know.

hmmmm...,lunch was pathetic as usual,

classes were superbly bored..,again =.="

But pool was great though =)

Arghhh missed ONE episode of moonlight *sobs sobs sobs*

Slept the whole afternoon with the rain pouring on my window plane.

Woke up to realised I got a TEST tommorrow!

^___________^"

Better start to work on it a little now.

Loads to catch up!

Till then...

where is the LOVE...?

Would you turn the other cheek? Just like the whole world did? People only attracted to the things that bring you trauma. So ask yourself : Is this what you live for? The truth is kept secret. Help us send some guidance from above. Value of humanity = value of quality? Is love found? Happy faces will one day fill the earth again....one day, I promise...




Happy = LOVE? Perhaps not. Where's the fairness in inequality? Overseas people are addicted to the drama. Caught us in between conflicts and made us believe we're the purpose for it. Always been this way, ongoing suffering what is really going on? The reason's undercover. You can hear them crying. People got me questioning : Where is Love? Wrong information is being shown by the media. Losing You Losing Grip. Kids are victims in this story. Let this trainwreck burn more slowly. Protecting the human race only discriminate hate. That's how anger works and operates. You really think you got the answer? Ask yourself so I can ask myself : Where is the Love..? I wish I knew..

zzZ =)

PH.DEAD.YSICS

Another miserable day in Inti.

Mr.conceptual-is-everything-in-physics is giving ME a hard time again.

Blah blah blah for not attending lab experiments. *sobs sobs sobs*

I wish i could do better next time. =.="

Time really does fly by.

It's already week 8 without noticing.lolx.

The thought about her returned again last night.

The only feeling I can't shake it off.

o.O

[C.O.M.I.N.G.H.O.M.E]

Inspiration~ my sympathy for you is the antidote for your LOVE poison

How far i have travelled? Only to realise that I am still far away from home. Listening to them is the least of my trouble. Im beginning to understand myself
better. A clearer FACADE of you had been revealed. I am coming HOME tonight

a Place to Hide.....

Running...Finding for A Place to Hide

My soul grows heavy with every breath i take.
I can't stop running yet every step that i take pounds my feet even more.
The hard cement is knocking at my soul, telling my to drop, to let the earthquake suck me in,
but for some uncomprehensible reason my feet keep moving...
The cold, bone-chilling wind is wipping oppisite my face,
but somehow pushing me forward, testing my strength to survive.
My bare feet are numb, I cannot feel my hands anymore.
My foot steps echo through this empty road.
A road that has no end.
By panting, breathing heavily, i reassure myself that i am alive...
My mind, terrified to look behind me, for fear of my fears catching up with me.
The thundering of the earthquake suddenly stops,
for an instant my feet stop and i fall to the ground defeated
As the ground around me breaks, i fall through for what seems like forever...i just keep falling.
I finally land but feel no pain.
Instead, i lie in a humongous mansion on a big bed, sleeping.
I heard one small, still voice reaching me.
Although, I could not see the figure, he said,
'You ran from all the world, and even when you felt you had no strength
left you kept on.
You kept in me and i kept in you.
You are home now, you may rest
Well done, my child...

*A* ~iye back! wondering....

Have it ever occur to you that sometimes its better if we just let them know the 'truth' ? Looking back made me realised the fact that they still care about me here and there but sometimes looking back made me more confused and kept me wondering...,what's the point if they cared?? They dont understand!... It only make matters worse when they knew what's going on..this so-called truth is a nightmare for them mainly because they didnt consider the reason behind this.. *Imagine* Rough foundation that couldnt support 88 storeys of lies and dusts...sink beneath rotten strengh...~sway my way..,i need to know all about you, this is all because of you~..

Recently i found out that they we're seeing each other which enlighten me for a moment....*yay? =S....guess not...* sobs sobs sobs...but they're happy together which made me feel better later... ~another sun soaked season fades away~

The two-sided-fully-filled wish lists was ignored again...*sigh*...i could not even get no.97?? It's the easiest! T.T sobs sobs sobs...

I wish I was there again tonight...* I drew a new face and I laughed* We spoke again...,I smiled at her on the way back the other day..(before the hols)...she called me that evening...i wish I could have called her instead... Well,she sounded different...,again. =S....she told me something that i dont understand..again..
Oh well i think i better have a talk with her soon...hmmmmm ~i've been spending too long checking myself in the mirror~

Let's not complicate things again...,enjoy the final bits of the hols!! yeah when are they coming back?? wondering..........................................

~back home...again~

sleepless nights for the pass 96 hours...*sigh*... long journey home for raya hols...
damn i wish i was there tonight!!! the thought of our former maths lecturer appeared again over and over again...i miss her!!! she left us at the beginning of our 2nd sem without notice... hmmmmm....if only we were told earlier..~sobs sobs sobs~....





~me! lost somewhere in the picture~











AGAIN..,stiffy aint making it easy for me again...(wat's wrong with him??!!! damnit!!! whadda fugg is fugging wrong with him??? can he be mature a leetle more???) ah screw him...missed the old days where we're down there doin assignments together...lol..(was fun thou)...

these hols wont be the same again as he's moving....,he's out there somewhere...,she's with him...,she's on vacation....,he's lost in action...,she's crying for her lost teddy etc etc etc....hmmmm im all alone again...=(=(....
guess i'll have to spend the hols at home...=D at least its better with having HIM around!!! fugg u spain!!! =P